How?

How can someone be surrounded by so many yet feel so alone? How can someone feel like they have control but in reality they have none at all? How can someone say they love you but show very little to prove that? How can someone see what’s going on and have the power to change it, but doesn’t do anything at all?

I guess the real question is why? Why allow yourself to feel alone? Why try to control what you can’t. Your emotions and your thoughts and actions is all you can control. Unconditional love? What is it? A bond between a parent and a child. That’s the only type of unconditional love, Because all other types of love, is conditional, you must do this- to get that. Or you must do that to be loved. Stop doing what they want or if they just wake up and decide they don’t love you anymore then BAM! It’s over. But not when it’s your child, that’s different. You give it all to your child. You sacrifice. From the first moment you find out. As a mom, you make adjustments. If you drink, you stop. If you smoke you stop. No heavy lifting, no intense workouts, no sushi or deli meats. Immediately you become a mom from the moment you find out. Cold turkey. That’s love. That’s loving a little being you haven’t even met. Because immediately you are caring for another little being, growing inside of you. 

How can others be so insensitive? How can a miscarriage not effect anyone but the mother? Why isn’t it more recognized and given more time to heal? Emotionally, physically but no- no alive baby so life is forced to go back to normal hours later after you get the news. How sad. How can a family member pray that your unborn child isn’t a female? How can those words come out of one’s mouth? How can one be so insensitive during one of the happiest moments of life? Words carry weight and words do matter, especially if it’s coming from someone we are supposed to love.

i know theres several topics of discussion here. but these are my random thoughts that i am trying to gather and share. im new to blogging so please have some patience with me.